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I have been trying to train my 2 yr old to use the potty before this new one arrives. He was very interested a few months ago and then got tired of the idea. So I let it go because quite honestly, I know he would do it when he was ready.

Then I saw this neat little gadet.

http://www.pottytimeinc.com/

It's called the potty watch. And it has a countdown timer that you can set for 30, 60, 0r 90 mins and then lights blink and it plays a little song for you....reminding you it's time to use the potty. When I saw it I had to have it. Well it came in the mail today and honestly, its been the best tool I have ever seen. Because he's just starting out we set it for every 30 mins. And each time it plays the song he says "it's potty time" and comes and finds me. We then proceed to the bathroom so he can attempt to do his business. Sometimes he goes, sometimes he doesn't. But he is willing to try and that's all that matters. He has one accident while we were using it and it's my fault. I gave him a sippy right after he tried going potty and 20 mins later it hadn't processed enough for him to have to go. So he did what kids do and went in his pants. But we're off to a good start.

This last time he was on the potty I said to him "wow your such a big boy...not a baby boy anymore." And he then says to me "So the baby in yours belly is a girl then?" HAHAHAHAHAHA! How in the world did he process that through? I don't understand how a 2 yr old can think like that. It amazes me...and I love him.

Did I mention how impatient I am?

I can't stand not knowing what this baby is an I am only 6 weeks into this.

Part of me is excited when I think about having a girl, and then I start thinking about having another boy and I am equally as excited. I have a boys name that I like so I think that makes me want a boy even more...lol. And yes, we are done with "E" names. Thankfully its not up to me to decided boy or girl. God has had this planned out before I even came into existence. He knows what's best for our family and what the missing link is.

It just amazes me, that no matter how many times I do this, I get equally as excited. I feel like I am 21 again finding out I am pregnant with my first. I am just so excited for this baby. Having a baby never gets old. Are there parts of pregnancy I'd rather skip? Yes. I'd be lying if I said no. It just never ceases to amaze me what a blessing and miracle this is. I can't fathom how to make a person....I am just the vessel of God's creation and that's what is so special. That God is physically creating a human within me even as a type this. That He has spoken life into my belly. He started the heart beat of this little one just last week. It's pretty amazing.

I am just grateful for this experience and I am trying to cherish every moment. After this baby this season of my life will end. I want to try to hold on and remember every moment good and bad. In some ways it will be exciting to know that our family is complete. I can sit back and watch my children grow up and see what they become. On the other hand it will be sad to never carry a child again. I will never again experience the kicks of life within my belly. But to everything there is a season. My season of child bearing is coming to an end in 9 months and I am at peace with that and grateful that God has given me the opportunity to carry 5 of his children. I have been truly blessed.

6 weeks 1 day

I thought it was going to be really hard to keep this secret. After all it is exciting news. But I have found that after telling the initial few it is actually quite easy not to mention it to anyone. I have talked to some on the phone and never even had the urge to say anything. Yes, I do need to make sure I am careful about my Facebook updates because there are things I would love to post but for the most part its rather easy to keep quiet.

I am impressed with myself. : )
I must be getting older and more mature... : )

In other news still feeling the same. I get nauseas in the evenings and often don't eat dinner but that's ok because Phil is home to hold down the fort. He made dinner the other night for everyone which was a relief because I couldn't stand to be around the food.

I was really sick the other day. I had a 24 hour bug. Both of my kids had it and it started with severe belly pain and then frequent bathroom trips. I couldn't believe how badly my stomach actually hurt. I felt bad that the kids had to feel that too. Luckily it was only 24 hours and it's over and done with at this point.

I am still a little nervous that I haven't really been sick. Just nauseas and food aversions. I know this is morning sickness as well, it's just hard to not think that things may go wrong. I was doing some research on morning sickness and said you are highly likely to have vomiting if its your first baby. Every pregnancy is different and that the effects of morning sickness can slowly diminish with each subsequent pregnancy. This did hold true when I was pregnant with Ethan. I still became good friends with the toilet bowl but I was no where near as sick as I was with Emma. I am just praying that this is the case this time. Really I should be rejoicing that it's not that severe since I have two other kids to care for.

Fatigue still continues. Last night I was asleep by 8:30 and that was late. I could have gone to bed much earlier but I was hoping to stay up and spend time with Phil. Oh well.....maybe this weekend. lol!

I'd rather be sleeping.

Exhaustion does not even begin to describe how I feel right now. Unfortunately we have no food in our house and I desperately need to go food shopping. YUCK!

So off we go to our biweekly McDonald's breakfast outing then off to Walmart. Then hopefully I can squeeze in a nap this afternoon....cause my tank is empty.

6th sense

Anyone who knows me knows I am not a HUGE animal lover. Well truth is I like little animals but when it comes to big dogs, bid messes, big food bills...I am SO over it. We have a little 10 lb pomapoo who I got after my first miscarriage. She sleeps in bed with us every night.

Just recently we adopted a 3 yr old cat from a shelter to help with the mice when we lived in the country. Now that we moved he is obviously still with us, and I must say one of the best cats we have had. He also sleeps in bed with us every night. Normally he sneaks under the covers and finds a spot down by our feet to curl up and dream the night away.

That is...until I got pregnant. Now he chooses to sleep curled up right against my stomach. It always amazes me how perceptive animals are. How in the world does he know that there is something different?

It's like when we had our lab Haley. She knew when I was going to miscarry before I even started to. A few days before it happened she would follow me around constantly sniffing at me, and she would come and lay her head on my legs and just stay there. This wasn't normal behavior for her. She knew something wasn't right. I thought it was just my imagination but it happened both times and she never acted that way again.

It's like animals have a 6th sense. I have heard stories of how they will freak out before storms are even in sight etc. It just amazes me.

So as I start on this journey I have Tucker the cat, right there curled up in his "new home at night" for the next 9 months. It will be interesting to see what he does when the belly starts to kick him. Hahahahaha!

Gray face?

Last night I was sitting on the couch feeling rather yucky. I didn't really eat any dinner because my stomach has not been right. I pulled out the handy Saltines and parked my rear on the couch for the night. Phil came in and sat down and we watched "Chuck" together. He turned to me and asked "How many of those crackers are you gonna eat? You've eaten half the sleeve." I said "As many as it takes to make my stomach feel better." To which he replied " Yah you do look sick. Your face is gray. Poor baby"
I said "Well it's worth it if it means a healthy baby." And he said "Have some confidence it will be fine this time."

First of all I am glad he has so much faith. I wish I could be that sure. I had nausea with the ones I lost so I am not convinced yet.

And secondly a gray face? Gross!!! I had no idea I looked that bad.

Hoping gray faces is a good sign. : )

Migraine`

Today I am getting a migraine. YUCK! I get them every time I am pregnant and it will last a good 3-5 days usually. Not happy about this but I had it with Ethan and Emma so that's a good sign. Must be the rapid increase of hormones or something.

I will have my first doctor's appointment in a few weeks. I am excited to go and have an initial ultrasound to make sure the baby is ok. It will be a relief to see the little beating heart.

Other then being exhausted and having a headache all is well.

My verses for the past two days:

Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you.

~ Matthew 7:7, NLT

And it is impossible to please God without faith. Anyone who wants to come to him must believe that God exists and that he rewards those who sincerely seek him Hebrews 11:6 NLT (Context)