Out of the cave

Things haven't changed much in the past few weeks.
I've been trying to seek God and His will and just be patient. There is nothing more that I can give which leads me to believe that I am right where God would have me to be. This way when something does come through I know it's not my own doing.

I was reading a devotional from Patsy Clairmont and she challenged us to quiet our minds and to Be Still. Be Still and Know God. Be still and hear God. Have you ever really tried to quiet your mind. It's almost as hard as taming your tongue.
You can sit in your room by yourself, close the door and try to be still and then someone knocks on the door, or thoughts rage through your mind about laundry and lunch and dishes. Then you hear every bird walking around, every insect buzz. It really is hard to completely quiet your mind.
I tried to do this the other day. I sat in the bathtub (usually the only time I can be alone of course the kids were napping as well) and I was thanking God for what He had given us. Then I told Him I would try to quiet my mind and I was longing to hear from Him.
It took a little bit of work but I began just by concentrating on my breathing then as I became more relaxed, I visually pictured myself at the throne of God, bowed down at His feet. And just like that I saw a very quick vision. It was me coming out of a dark, cold, damp cave, holding on to Jesus' hand. There was a stone stairway that came out of the cave and winded around the outside of the mountain. I pulled His hand and was all excited climbing the stairs towards this bright, warm, light. I said "you've got to see this, oh wait you already know what it is you created it." And just like that it was gone.
Then of course I immediately begin to doubt that this was God speaking to me. That somehow I imagined this scenario. Isn't that the "human" way? Doubt, disbelief. Then I really started thinking about it and how would I imagine something like that? It was a matter of seconds that the vision took place and I didn't have any thoughts running through my head. I also had great peace about the whole thing.

See I've been praying for sometime that God bring us out of this valley and up to the mountain. That I feel as if I need a time of rest. Where everything is just ok for a while.
I've told Him that I've felt alone, even though I have people around me.

This vision to me meant that even in this cold, dark, dreary place I am not alone. God was there with me. And I will emerge from the darkness hand in hand with my God. He will bring us to the mountain top, and give us more then we ever thought possible. I was excited to tell God what happened in my life. What great things lay ahead...but He already knew. He orchestrated it all. He always had seen the big picture. Sometimes I really wish I could see the big picture and know that everything is going to be all right. That's not God's way though. That doesn't bring us into a deeper relationship with Him. The important thing is that He is there, standing hand in hand with us. Whether we be in the dark cave of life, or high upon the warm sunny mountain.
I think God was telling me I'm not alone, and we will be starting our climb upwards. And most of all, wherever you are in your journey, He is right there by your side holding your hand.

Ephesians 3:20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us.

Isaiah 41:13 For I am the LORD your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.

This one is especially interesting because in my vision God was holding my right hand. I really didn't know the significance of this until I researched it.

Thanking God for faithfulness, and looking up for my sunshine. : )