I'm leaving on a jet plane

...but I do know I will be back Sunday evening.

I have been getting up in the middle of the night with heartburn. Joy! I hate heartburn and am so grateful that I do not have heartburn unless I am pregnant. It doesn't matter what I eat I still get it. So, if I am going to suffer anyway I eat what I want and crave.

Also more scary dreams. I know it's all part of the increased hormone thing but it can really freak me out. The dreams have mostly been about Ethan and that he (now this sounds awful cause I love my son so much) dies. Maybe it's nothing or maybe it's symbolic of him "dying" as the baby in the family. I keep talking about how it's crazy that he is going to be a big brother so I am sure that some of that is playing out at night. Last night though I dreamnt that I left the baby in the car.....and it was hot. When I realized I had done it I went running outside and some little kids had taken her out of the car and said "don't worry we put her on the hood of the car." AHHHHH! I ran over just to see her rolling over and off the hood of the car. Luckily she fell onto the ground onto a pillow and was ok. The crazy part is that we were trying to do something nice for Emma. We were looking into new schools and a new house and in my absent mindedness left the baby in the car. Like I said I am sure this is a lot of life playing out in my dreams because I have been praying for a new house closer to work, a new school, and Ethan not being the baby anymore. Let's just hope this all stays in my dreams and doesn't translate to real life.

Another great pregnancy symptom is pregnancy brain! I can't seem to remember my name nevermind that I have children. HAHAHA I left the house the other day with car keys but no house keys. I didn't realize it until I got home with bags of stuff. Luckily, Phil hid a set of keys so I could get into the house. Smart man.
I'm also misplacing things, forgetting things on a regular basis. I almost forgot Emma got out of school 2 hours early on her last day. Not sure how I would forget that but thankfully I remember and came home from Walmart just in time to get her. I'm telling ya, this pregnancy thing ruins your body!

So today I am trying to finish up laundry, packing etc so that I am ready to leave tomorrow. I can't wait! It should be fun! I am super nervous about flying but I always am. I tend to feel guilty about leaving my kids and then I start getting the "what if the plane crashes anxiety." Thank God it's a fast flight!

Well that's all for now. Just wanted to check in before I left. We're just chugging along. We have 15 weeks left at the most. Exciting, and scary all at the same time. I can't wait to see what her personality is like.

Oh yah did I mention we may be changing her name? hahaha! I know, I know. Me who likes to plan is mixing things up. It's just that Phil picked the name Caroline, but he keeps calling her Carolyn which we both don't like. Emma is calling her Cathrine, Cate, Carolyn, and many people I tell the name to are calling her Carolyn. I don't want her to me called that....that is not her name. I said to Phil casually if you can't even get it right then maybe we should change it, and he said yah I think your right. He said "I like the name but I just can't remember it." lol Which isn't a shock for Phil seeing as he called me Jen for the first few months we were dating. lol. He is just horrible with names.

I keep praying for the right name to come along. I am hoping once I see her on 3D ultrasound something will just click. It's not like me to not have a name especially at this point in the game. God is still trying to teach me patience....even when it comes to a baby name.

Well she is kicking me as I type this. She is a mad woman now....she never stops. So much for my quiet peaceful third baby. Look out world!

I guess I should go get some things done. Until next week!

23 weeks 4 days

This past weekend was a busy weekend. We went back to NY to get the remainder of our things. Of course I couldn't sleep the night before we were supposed to leave. I was so uncomfortable and was tossing and turning all night. I would lay on one side and that side would fall asleep, I change sides and that side would fall asleep. Fed up I finally gave it up and got up at 3 in the morning to start my day. I showered and was up when the alarm went off for Phil at 5. We got the kids up and were out of the house at 6.
The guy who was supposed to help us move backed out on Friday and thankfully someone else from Phil's work volunteered to help us and was here at 6 in the morning. Thank God because we never could have done it without his help. We had so many big heavy things and I could not/should not be lifting.

By the time we made a couple of stops and picked up the rental truck we didn't get to packing and loading until 12. I packed up what I could, decided what to take and what to leave and the kids and I were on the road at 5 pm.

Luckily the guys were not far behind because as I was driving the tire pressure in one of the tires kept going low. There is obviously some sort of leak in the tire but there was not much we could do about it while in transit back to the house. I met up with Phil and he filled it up for me for a second time (I did the (I filled it before I left.) He followed me home for the last 2 hours which really put my mind at ease. He also took Ethan with him for the last half of the drive which made the time much more pleasant.
The kids were overtired and fighting the first 2 hrs so it really was a relief for Phil to take him the last half.

I think we finally rolled into the driveway at 10 pm.

Sunday was a day of unloading and now for the unpacking and organizing which I am awful at. It doesn't help that we went from a house that was 1500 sq ft down to this rental that is just over 1000 sq ft. Plus we are adding a family member. Just pray that we are able to find a new affordable rental over the summer so we can not only have more room, but we can get Emma into a better school system.

So yesterday I was pretty much useless and it bothered me. I was having Braxton Hicks non-stop. For the first time Phil could actually see them happening so that made me feel better. Because my mom is a hypochondriac I like to know that people believe me when I actually complain about something. I have been have the contractions for months now, but Phil had yet to recognize it. I would place his hand on my belly when they happened and he said he felt them but honestly I can have a muscle knot in my neck the size of a baseball and tell him to feel it and he can't feel it. Not sure why, he just isn't good with stuff like that. So for him to see my belly and say wow it's sticking out, huge and hard is a BIG step. I am trying to do some things today without over exerting myself. I was really worried yesterday and told him that if they continued today I would be calling the doctor. So far so good but it's only 9 a.m.

I am trying to do things in little spurts. 15 mins active then sit and rest. I want to get the kids bedrooms done today and at least the kitchen cleaned up.

Today also starts swim lessons for my kids which should be interesting. They start at 4 tonight so we will see how that goes. Emma's last day of school is tomorrow.

Then I am off for a mini vacation on Friday. I am so excited. I am going away with one of my high school friends. We are both pregnant right now with girls so we will do a little shopping and just relax. Boy, do I need that!
Next will be Phil's turn. I feel so bad for him, he has been working like a maniac which is good because we need the money but at the same time one person can only work so much before they burn out. He is a bit moody, but its very understandable. Yesterday was interesting with a tired moody dad, a contracting moody mom, and two over tired moody children. We were very pleasant to be around. Did you catch the sarcasm?

Anyway that's all for now. Hopefully I will get some new pics up soon.