Momentary scare

This morning I woke up and went to the bathroom as most people do. When I wiped I noticed a little blood on the toilet paper. Not a lot probably about the size of a dime, and it wasn't bright red but it WAS blood. It hasn't happened again today so that's a good thing.

We'll see what the next few weeks bring. Hopefully I will make it at least until September, but more like September 12th because that's when my sister will be coming.

Phil's really hoping for a September 11th baby. He thinks it would be really cool to share his b-day with his last baby. We shall see.

The Ultrasound machine broke.

Just my luck right. First they tell me I have to be 31 weeks which wasn't true and now this. I was pretty upset that the machine broke but hey what can you do? It is what it is? Doesn't mean I didn't have a good cry though.

But then it happened. Phil's aunt who lives in Hawaii, offered to pay for me to have one. I didn't know if she was just being nice or if she really wanted to do it. I politely refused at first and then she said no really I want to do this. She told me to call around today to get prices and schedule an appointment. I just have to wait until places open to find the best price. The closest place wanted $225 and I am convinced we can do better then that.

Anyway I was beyond shocked and very excited that she is doing this for us. Mostly everyone I told said "that stinks, but at least you'll get to see her soon." No one offered to do anything like this nor did I expect them too. But I sure am glad she did. That totally made my night that much better. I know its a small petty thing, but this is something I have wanted to do since I was pregnant with Ethan.

So searching I will do today. But for now I have to feed the other kids because they are hungry and very impatient.

If God is in Control Why is My Life Such a Mess?

I listen to Christian radio quite often and one of the preachers on there is Michael Youssef. While I was at the library trying to find some new reads I came across a book written by him called "If God is in Control Why is My Life Such a Mess? Experiencing God's Sovereignty During Dark and Difficult Day."

I have to admit I was kind of embarrassed to check it out. I even read the title and passed over it a few time before picking it up off the shelf and bringing it to the desk. Even then I was shy about getting it. After all I know God is with me right now but my life does seem like one big mess.

I began reading it last night off and on and now I am on page 58. There is a paragraph in here that really spoke to me just now and I want to remember this.

It reads:

"Until you are willing to risk everything in trust of God's provision, you have not learned to live by faith. If everything in your life is calculated, comfortable, and safe you have not learned what it is to live by faith. By prior experience Elijah had learned to trust totally in God's provision."

Why does it bother me?

Text Conversation from my mother:

"What's up with the baby's new name. Can't you change it to Faith Audrey instead. I don't really like it. I like Faith but not Audrey but it's not up to me. Maybe I'm missing something...oh well....I'll still love her even with that name."

Why can't I just have a normal supportive mom.

30 week 5 day check up

I hate going to the doctors in the afternoon. I also hate being weighed with clothing on. Their scale said I weighed 148 which according to their scale means I gained 5 lbs this pregnancy so far. Which is fair. I just like my home scale so much better. Naked first thing in the morning I weigh in at 145 and I started at 140. That just seems so much better.

Anyway she has slowed down in her growing. She is measuring just under 31 cm and I will be 31 weeks Thursday so thats good.

She said the ripping pulling pain on my scar is normal. Probably just scar tissue which is what I figured.

I go back Friday at 3 for my ultrasound. I am SO excited but a bit ticked cause the doctor told me I had to wait until I was 31 weeks along. They receptionist told me that's not right that the cutoff is 31 weeks and they won't do it over that point since she will be too big. She said I could of had it at 28 weeks up until now. Thank God they had an appointment on Friday or else I probably wouldn't have gotten one. Now lets just pray she cooperates. Unfortunately Phil will miss it because we have just gotten back from vacation and the past two Friday's he left early. The first was to see Emma's riding performance 2 Friday's ago and last week was so he could take his motorcycle instruction course. : ( Stinks but at least it will be recorded on DVD so he can watch it when he gets home. My kids looked very different from each other when they were born so it will be interesting to see who she looks like.

Anyway I will post pics as soon as I get them. I can't wait. Now off to do dishes before Phil gets home. Feels like I was gone all day today!

Audrey Faith

Phil picked it and that's what we are going with.

Audrey Meaning:


Noble strength

Faith Meaning:


Confidence; belief

Funny story about her middle name. On the 11 hour car ride home from our vacation we were discussing the name Faith. Phil wanted to use it as a first name and I had liked it better as her middle name, as this is what I had picked a while back. We were talking about it for a while and then looked off to the side of the road and saw a massive red and white sign that said "FAITH". That's it, just Faith.

Phil's response was "well that's a sign if I've ever seen one!" I knew right then we had to use Faith as one of her names. I must have laughed for 15 minutes after we saw that.

So we will see how she is doing today. I know one thing....girlie is strong. She kicks and kicks and punches me all. day. long. She is very much how Ethan was in utero. Hopefully she won't have colic like he did. Don't know if I can handle another colic baby. Another reason we picked the name Audrey. It means strong like Ethan's name does.

I am praying that I will be able to get in for my 3D ultrasound this week. Come to find out the best time to do the 3D scan is anywhere from 24-26 weeks. Most sites say this is optimal time frame. My doctor said I had to wait until 31 weeks, but I was reading that she will be so big that you only get just facial pics or just arm pics etc. Sometimes you may not even get facial pics if she is not in the right position. The absolute latest you should get it is 32 weeks...which is next week. So hopefully they will either just take me today or I can get in there in the next few days.

Look at this

From my Facebook app "God wants you to know."

On this day of your life, Andi, we believe God wants you to know ... that the great advantage of having nothing is that everything becomes a gain.
Losing everything is at the same time the scariest, as well as the most liberating experience you can have. When you have something, - anything, you've got to protect it from disappearing. And so worry becomes a resident in your heart. When you've got nothing, your heart overflows with gratitude for every offering you receive.

That's kind of crazy considering the month we have had.

And that last night I had a dream that there were a bunch of moths eating all of our stuff. Could the priorities have been wrong in our lives?

But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. Matthew 6:20

I've always loved to shop for clothing. It's my "drug" of choice. Granted I like to get good deals on things but maybe that was an area in my life that was out of whack. I haven't bought anything in about a month now since we have been short every pay check and can't even pay the bills. Maybe God is forcing me to look at this area in my life.

Who would have thought? I never really assumed the problem was mine. You always go to the other person at first glance. In my head I thought maybe we were being punished for Phil not following as he should. Isn't that always the way? Blame the other person? But lately I keep getting these scriptures sent to me that seem to be saying otherwise. I've also gotten a few sent to me on discipline.

Kind of crazy because here I was asking for forgiveness for things that I thought I had done wrong. The reality is that it was something totally different.

Prov 3:11-12 (NIV) My son, do not despise the Lord's discipline and do not resent his rebuke, because the Lord disciplines those he loves, as a father the son he delights in.

Prov 15:5 (NIV) A fool spurns his father's discipline, but whoever heeds correction shows prudence.

Job 5:17-18 (New International Version)

17 "Blessed is the man whom God corrects;
so do not despise the discipline of the Almighty. [a]

18 For he wounds, but he also binds up;
he injures, but his hands also heal.

That's alot to think about right there.