Melon anyone?

Before I got pregnant my chest measured 36C. In just 8 weeks we have blossomed into a....are you ready for this? You may want to sit down.....Are you ready? A whopping 32 DD. Yah seriously...............HUGE! Time to go bra shopping. Thank God Hanes is having bras on sale for $8 right now. Can't beat it especially since they will be deflating in about 8 months.

OK baby you've made you health known..now could you ease up?

Be careful what you wish for you just might get it.

That's where I am today.

First of all I am really bummed out big time. I was supposed to fly to my sister's shower today and there is no way that's going to happen. The lovely cold has turned to bronchitis and the morning sickness has stepped up its' game. It seems I am coughing my lung up at times, and sometimes I cough so hard I throw up. GREAT! Not to mention the throwing up from morning sickness. It's making for a lovely few days. I feel so bad though. I am one of the people who is supposed to be throwing this shower and I have made monetary contributions but I still I am not there to help with the leg work. It sucks! It really sucks. I feel bad for my sister that is having the shower and the other one that's throwing it. It's not fair to them but honestly there is not much I can do at this point. It's just my luck though to get sick the week I am supposed to leave. Seriously?

Secondly, I really remember why this is my last baby. I am getting to old to be doing this. I am already fed up with the sickness and I've only had it for 2 weeks. I know it means good things and I try to remind myself of that "Thank you God cause I know the baby is healthy." but at the same time it's the most awful thing to do. Luckily I am quickly approaching 3 months and am hoping that all of this will subside soon.

The baby has proved it's health now if he or she would back off a bit I would greatly appreciate it! Still be healthy baby...just ease up a bit on your old mom.

Now I have to go try to eat something. I just want to crawl into bed and sleep the day away but it's impossible with my 2 yr old. Emma went back to school so that is good and bad. Hopefully I can sneak in a nap at Ethan's nap time.

8 week picture

The one above is me mid cough. I have had the worst cough/cold for over a week now. It is the ugliest picture ever but it made me laugh so what the heck. I told you Emma was in a hurry. She snapped off about 5 pics and took off to go eat her snack. Look at my face it all distorted. hahaha! This cracks me up. *Note to self. Don't cough in public*


My photographer was in a hurry to eat today so she didn't want to hang around and take pics so this is what I get.

8 Weeks today

I stepped on the scale today for the first time in a few weeks. I had lost 4 lbs before I got pregnant which made my starting weight at 138. Then I gained 2 lbs back pretty quickly with all the eating I was doing. I stepped on the scale today and I am back down to 139, which is not unusual for me. I tend to loose weight in the beginning due to sickness.

Last night I fell asleep at 8:30. CRAZY! The only problems I am having with this is that I then wake up super early...like 3:30 am early and have trouble going back to sleep. I finally did fall back to sleep last night but after a long time. Ethan also woke up last night screaming. Actually, he was howling. I thought it was our dog howling to go out and pee but it was Ethan. Phil went and got him and asked him what was wrong and he said he had a nightmare. He said that "we all went to Cabela's and told him it was time to go and he didn't listen so we left him there and he was scared." Poor kid! Though I know that wouldn't be a nightmare for Phil! hahaha!

I have to get my little photographer to take my picture today. A little crazy I know, but I love seeing my belly get bigger. Another sign to me that the baby is growing and of God's hand working in me. I was so bummed that I didn't have that many pics of Ethan's pregnancy. Emma was only 3 then and Phil was gone all the time so it was hard to get anyone to take a pic. Luckily Ethan's a boy and quite honestly, he probably won't be that interested in it anyway.

BTW did you see my little ticker? My baby is looking awfully cute..and awfully human like : ) Can't wait to get an ultrasound. They do 4D ultrasound here and I know they do it at 5 months along but I am not sure if they do 4D this early. I hope so. It will be neat to get a real good sneak peak inside the womb.

Phil's talking about going with me on Monday. I called and asked if an ultrasound would be preformed at that time and they said "no it's just an interview." But I don't know if that's true because they asked me specifically which doctor I would like to see. I have never had an interview with a doctor. I spoke to two different girls when I called so we'll see whose right. It's just that I have been told that before and gotten there and they say surprise time for a pap! So we'll see what happens.

Pictures will come a little later...right now I am still in pj's!

Is it nap time yet?

How could I possibly forget how exhausting it is to grow a baby?

I woke up at 6:30 this morning not feeling so well. I was sick this morning which again is a blessing and a curse.

My kids woke up and I sent them to my room to watch tv while I chilled on the couch. I have been there for 3 hours not doing a thing and I got up walked to the kitchen to get something to eat and sat down at the computer and now, I NEED A NAP!

I think for me it's more aggravating then anything. I know in my head that I don't need to sleep by my body is telling me otherwise. I am supposed to be leaving this Friday to go to Massachusetts for my sisters wedding shower and honestly right now I feel like I need a nap just thinking about it.

I cannot wait until I am in my second trimester. You know what I mean...that point where you don't look "just fat", and your energy magically comes back, and you are out of the woods as far as miscarriage goes, and you feel the baby move. Oh second trimester where are you?

Every time I have been at this stage I swear off having anymore children. "This is it" I say as I hug the toilet. But silly me has done it 4 more times since the first baby so I guess I am a liar.

I feel bad for Phil as well. I fall asleep so early every night. I try to explain to him that I don't mean it. I am literally wide awake one minute and sound asleep the next. Yesterday I took 2 naps! I feel like a bad mother/wife at this stage because I am finding it very difficult to keep up with all the demands of daily living.

Thankfully, Emma has been home from school since Feb 5th on snow days. She has been a help as far as being able to get her and Ethan easy things to eat etc. Honestly, some days I don't even want to look at food never mind try to make food for the kids. That feeling is worst at night at dinner. I could skip it all together but I have 3 other people to feed so that's nor really possible.

Plus it doesn't help that I have been sick along with Ethan. We have this awful cold that will not go away. Lucky for him, he can take some meds to help him sleep at night. Not so lucky for me, I have to deal with it because of the baby. Why does it always seem like you come down with the worst infections etc when you are pregnant and can't take any medication? I am taking vitamins, I should be super healthy right now.....Hello body? Did you hear that? Super healthy right now.

Anyways it sounds like I am complaining alot here and really I am not. I just want to document every last second of this pregnancy. Not only for my sake because it's my last bambino, but also for Emma's and for the new little one if it's a girl.


This is so my kids can look back and say yah mom did have morning sickness and it started around this time, and she felt the baby move around this time. It's good to know because alot of this is hereditary. I don't know if my mom had morning sickness. But I do know that my maternal grandmother did. And I didn't find this out until well after I had my first child.

7 weeks 5 days.

EXHAUSTED, 'nuf said.

How do you hear?

This is what I got on FB today and it was speaking right to me.

"Prayer is when you talk to God. Meditation is when you become quiet and listen to God. You've learned how to talk and ask well. Time to learn how to listen and hear, because God has been answering you."

I have had a lot of questions and I have asked His ears off. Obviously number one concern right now that this baby be all right. Number 2 is concerning Phil's job and money etc. Still kind of tight and we are definitely loosing our house and it doesn't all make sense at this point. My question is, how do you really hear from God? When He speaks to me it usually comes through things like above. I get a email with a verse that hits home, I happen to pick up a book I've neglected for weeks and had the words speak to me, I've had a preacher on tv speak exactly what I was going through.

How will God speak to these very personal needs?

One thing He's been bringing to my attention for about 2 months now is that "He, is God of the impossible."

First proof of this...I got pregnant in a month that I was not supposed to be able to get pregnant in because Phil was going to be gone. He was still gone, it just so happened my cycle was different that month.

But now how will this phrase translate to the rest of my life?

Why can't I trust that this baby will be ok?

Doubting Thomas?

Perhaps.

Hey, I'm only human so I do have my doubts. But I am excited to see what God will do.