Is it nap time yet?

How could I possibly forget how exhausting it is to grow a baby?

I woke up at 6:30 this morning not feeling so well. I was sick this morning which again is a blessing and a curse.

My kids woke up and I sent them to my room to watch tv while I chilled on the couch. I have been there for 3 hours not doing a thing and I got up walked to the kitchen to get something to eat and sat down at the computer and now, I NEED A NAP!

I think for me it's more aggravating then anything. I know in my head that I don't need to sleep by my body is telling me otherwise. I am supposed to be leaving this Friday to go to Massachusetts for my sisters wedding shower and honestly right now I feel like I need a nap just thinking about it.

I cannot wait until I am in my second trimester. You know what I mean...that point where you don't look "just fat", and your energy magically comes back, and you are out of the woods as far as miscarriage goes, and you feel the baby move. Oh second trimester where are you?

Every time I have been at this stage I swear off having anymore children. "This is it" I say as I hug the toilet. But silly me has done it 4 more times since the first baby so I guess I am a liar.

I feel bad for Phil as well. I fall asleep so early every night. I try to explain to him that I don't mean it. I am literally wide awake one minute and sound asleep the next. Yesterday I took 2 naps! I feel like a bad mother/wife at this stage because I am finding it very difficult to keep up with all the demands of daily living.

Thankfully, Emma has been home from school since Feb 5th on snow days. She has been a help as far as being able to get her and Ethan easy things to eat etc. Honestly, some days I don't even want to look at food never mind try to make food for the kids. That feeling is worst at night at dinner. I could skip it all together but I have 3 other people to feed so that's nor really possible.

Plus it doesn't help that I have been sick along with Ethan. We have this awful cold that will not go away. Lucky for him, he can take some meds to help him sleep at night. Not so lucky for me, I have to deal with it because of the baby. Why does it always seem like you come down with the worst infections etc when you are pregnant and can't take any medication? I am taking vitamins, I should be super healthy right now.....Hello body? Did you hear that? Super healthy right now.

Anyways it sounds like I am complaining alot here and really I am not. I just want to document every last second of this pregnancy. Not only for my sake because it's my last bambino, but also for Emma's and for the new little one if it's a girl.


This is so my kids can look back and say yah mom did have morning sickness and it started around this time, and she felt the baby move around this time. It's good to know because alot of this is hereditary. I don't know if my mom had morning sickness. But I do know that my maternal grandmother did. And I didn't find this out until well after I had my first child.