I'm leaving on a jet plane

...but I do know I will be back Sunday evening.

I have been getting up in the middle of the night with heartburn. Joy! I hate heartburn and am so grateful that I do not have heartburn unless I am pregnant. It doesn't matter what I eat I still get it. So, if I am going to suffer anyway I eat what I want and crave.

Also more scary dreams. I know it's all part of the increased hormone thing but it can really freak me out. The dreams have mostly been about Ethan and that he (now this sounds awful cause I love my son so much) dies. Maybe it's nothing or maybe it's symbolic of him "dying" as the baby in the family. I keep talking about how it's crazy that he is going to be a big brother so I am sure that some of that is playing out at night. Last night though I dreamnt that I left the baby in the car.....and it was hot. When I realized I had done it I went running outside and some little kids had taken her out of the car and said "don't worry we put her on the hood of the car." AHHHHH! I ran over just to see her rolling over and off the hood of the car. Luckily she fell onto the ground onto a pillow and was ok. The crazy part is that we were trying to do something nice for Emma. We were looking into new schools and a new house and in my absent mindedness left the baby in the car. Like I said I am sure this is a lot of life playing out in my dreams because I have been praying for a new house closer to work, a new school, and Ethan not being the baby anymore. Let's just hope this all stays in my dreams and doesn't translate to real life.

Another great pregnancy symptom is pregnancy brain! I can't seem to remember my name nevermind that I have children. HAHAHA I left the house the other day with car keys but no house keys. I didn't realize it until I got home with bags of stuff. Luckily, Phil hid a set of keys so I could get into the house. Smart man.
I'm also misplacing things, forgetting things on a regular basis. I almost forgot Emma got out of school 2 hours early on her last day. Not sure how I would forget that but thankfully I remember and came home from Walmart just in time to get her. I'm telling ya, this pregnancy thing ruins your body!

So today I am trying to finish up laundry, packing etc so that I am ready to leave tomorrow. I can't wait! It should be fun! I am super nervous about flying but I always am. I tend to feel guilty about leaving my kids and then I start getting the "what if the plane crashes anxiety." Thank God it's a fast flight!

Well that's all for now. Just wanted to check in before I left. We're just chugging along. We have 15 weeks left at the most. Exciting, and scary all at the same time. I can't wait to see what her personality is like.

Oh yah did I mention we may be changing her name? hahaha! I know, I know. Me who likes to plan is mixing things up. It's just that Phil picked the name Caroline, but he keeps calling her Carolyn which we both don't like. Emma is calling her Cathrine, Cate, Carolyn, and many people I tell the name to are calling her Carolyn. I don't want her to me called that....that is not her name. I said to Phil casually if you can't even get it right then maybe we should change it, and he said yah I think your right. He said "I like the name but I just can't remember it." lol Which isn't a shock for Phil seeing as he called me Jen for the first few months we were dating. lol. He is just horrible with names.

I keep praying for the right name to come along. I am hoping once I see her on 3D ultrasound something will just click. It's not like me to not have a name especially at this point in the game. God is still trying to teach me patience....even when it comes to a baby name.

Well she is kicking me as I type this. She is a mad woman now....she never stops. So much for my quiet peaceful third baby. Look out world!

I guess I should go get some things done. Until next week!