35 weeks

so much pressure right now. She is daily pushing downward to make her grand appearance in the world. Lots of pain at the top of my uterus. Not sure why that is. Also lots of dull back aches, which are to be expected toting around the load that I am.

My sister is now not coming until who knows when. She hasn't been assigned a home yet through the Air Force. She no longer wants to fly here but wants to drive. The only problem is that they only have one car. So she can't come for the time I would like her too because she can't leave her husband without a car for that long. Her priorities are definitely in the right spot it's just disappointing to me as I was counting on her being here during certain times.

Now I don't know what we'll do if I go into labor before she gets here. Phil and I actually got into an argument over it. He says we'll find someone but what he doesn't understand is that everyone we know works...both husband and wife. There are people who would take the kids if I went into labor on a weekend but other then that it will come down to Phil having them and me having the baby on my own. He said that won't happen that the hospital has waiting rooms, but really who the heck is going to sit in the waiting room and watch the kids? The nurses certainly won't.

I feel like he's not really thinking it through, but he just keeps saying there are people who will take the kids so I am not going to worry about it, but prepare myself to give birth on my own. At this point nothing would surprise me. I never thought I would go into labor with Ethan but I did, and it went fast. 5cm in 2 hrs.

Phil says this time to not wait and to go in right away which is easier said then done. We only have one car. He works half an hour from here. By the time I get a hold of him (hoping and praying he is at his plant and not off at the one in PA an hour away) and he gets here it's a good 40 mins into the process. Then he has to find some to take at least Ethan (if it happens while Emma is in school) and then drive me to the hospital.

The hospital doesn't allow pre-registering for some reason so then we get to fill out all the paperwork and sign all the consent forms and then have the baby.

I don't know I guess I am just overwhelmed. I thought I had everything worked out and now it all falls apart at the end.

I can't really worry about these things anymore. I am at the end here, and the day is already picked. God knows when she is to be born. Hopefully I will have someone here and if not, it's not the end of the world....just not ideal.

I feel like I could sleep until she is born. I'm so tired all the time. She continues to wake me up at 4 a.m. This actually works out to be a good time with Emma's schooling because even if I'm up for an hour to feed her we can go back to bed until 7 when Emma has to get up for school.