Keep pressing on

Yesterday, a long time prayer of mine was answered.

You see, like many of us do, my husband has had issues with the church in general from things he saw in his upbringing. There is to much to go into any long details, but he witnessed alot of corruption, hypocrisy, and was even in somewhat of a cult at one point in time. After we got married and left our home church we kind of fell away using the excuse that nothing was like our old church. This was at least 10 years ago.

Phil was at a school all week. One of the nights I know he went out looking for a Mother's Day Gift. One of the places he stopped at was Barnes and Noble.

When he came home last night he said "I hope your not mad but I bought myself a gift I just needed something to read, I was bored."

So I thought "what kind of hunting book did he get?"

He takes out the book and says "Since we're having another girl, I figure I need to be a real good father for them" and flashed me the book.

"Strong Fathers, Strong Daughters 10 Secrets Every Father Should Know. by Meg Meeker"

Can I just say that I was blown away. I know if I had bought that book for him, he probably would never read it.
I've literally been praying for him for years, not to be a good dad, but for his salvation. Things were pretty dark there for a while with him saying "he didn't know what he believed." He has always had this drive to be better then his dad, and I realized my nagging and begging to go to church was not helping. It just turned him off more.

So I turned to God. I read this scripture and continually reminded God of His promise

In the same way, you wives, be submissive to your own husbands so that even if any of them are disobedient to the word, they may be won without a word by the behavior of their wives,. 1 Peter 3:1

I have to say there were many days of tears thinking that this would never happen. I have literally prayed for him, for years.

And then it happened. As he sat reading the book he said to me "the more I read this book, the more I realize how important it is for us to have our kids in church. While I'm hunting tomorrow can you sit down and look at the area churches and find something for us? (sarcastically) I know you don't want to go, but I think it's a good idea especially for the girls."

Sometimes, we need to just back off and let God. Most times, easier said then done. Sometimes, you will pray for years before you have a breakthrough. Sometimes, God will answer as quickly as you asked. I have generally found that His timing is usually alot slower then ours, but you know, He knows best.

Just when I felt like all hope was gone. That little spark within was reignited. He has taken the first step with God's prompting. God has heard my cry and is answering my prayer. My number one concern above them all was salvation for my husband and children. Though I know he was saved years ago he certainly didn't believe anymore. I am beyond thrilled....and thankful to God more then words can express. Don't give up. Keep praying because you never know what God has in store.

When some feel like this baby girl is "less than" because she is a girl, I see her as one of the tools God has used to help my husband. This little life is not even here yet and she has made an impact. Try to wrap your head around that. It just proves that God really does have a plan for each and every one of us no matter how brief our life has been. This baby has only been growing for 19 weeks. Her daddy hasn't even seen her face, but she has made a difference to him. She may never know the full impact of her existence on him, but I am forever thankful to God for giving us this little girl. She IS something special. And we love her and want her beyond anything anyone could ever imagine. I can't wait to meet her face to face in just 19-20 more weeks.

Thank you God for answered prayer. I can never thank you enough. I am excited to see what out future holds, because I know Phil has a great calling in his life. This is just the beginning.