Did I ever mention how much I feel I relate to David?

David was a very emotional person. David knew the Lord. David wrote many of the Psalms. In today's world, David probably would have seemed emitionally unstable and that gives me joy because often times I feel just like him.

One day David is high as a kite, loving life and praising God.

The next, down depressed, feeling like his world was falling apart.

I can relate. Somedays are great. Even when it seems like nothings working out God's peace floods me and I am ok with things. Other days, like today, I feel like I could curl up under the covers and spend the day in bed. There is no real reason for feeling like this. Nothing has changed. I just wake up weary sometimes.

I just reading Psalm 6 this morning, and it certainly speaks to me. I read a Psalm and Proverb a day that correlates with the date and also my regular readings or anything I feel led to read. At least I try to. This is part of the whole discipline thing.

This morning Psalm 6 was right on with how I feel.

Psalm 6[a]
For the director of music. With stringed instruments. According to sheminith.[b] A psalm of David.
1 LORD, do not rebuke me in your anger
or discipline me in your wrath.
2 Have mercy on me, LORD, for I am faint;
heal me, LORD, for my bones are in agony.
3 My soul is in deep anguish.
How long, LORD, how long?

4 Turn, LORD, and deliver me;
save me because of your unfailing love.
5 Among the dead no one proclaims your name.
Who praises you from the grave?

6 I am worn out from my groaning.

All night long I flood my bed with weeping
and drench my couch with tears.
7 My eyes grow weak with sorrow;
they fail because of all my foes.

8 Away from me, all you who do evil,
for the LORD has heard my weeping.
9 The LORD has heard my cry for mercy;
the LORD accepts my prayer.
10 All my enemies will be overwhelmed with shame and anguish;
they will turn back and suddenly be put to shame.

I think this Psalm is a Psalm of intense despair, but also a proclamation of faith. To me verses 8-10 don't are not the physical evidence of what God has done for David but a declaration of what God promises. If we believe His word and trust in Him there are some things He promises unconditionally.

Matthew 6:25-34

Do Not Worry
25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[e]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.


The thing that really stands out is that God promises to provide for us if we SEEK HIM FIRST. I think God is really trying to impress this upon my heart. I think a lot of times that's what's been wrong. My priorities are all out of whack. I know I've thought "how do I not make money the primary focus when so much of our life is revolved around it." example---if we have no money we can't buy food which is turn affects everday life. If we don't have money to pay the electric bill the turn the power off. This affects everyday life.
I find that even my sleep is not restful. I go to bed worrying about the bills and the first thing I do when I wake up is think about the bills for that day. I don't necessarily think it's wrong to have those things on our mind....we are afterall, human. I also think the enemy is there coming on as strong as possible at night trying to get into our head and be upset and doubt God's provision. I do however, think that it's what we do with those thoughts after they come to us. It's easy to get caught up in the what if's. What if God doesn't provide food, what will you and the kids eat? What if God doesn't give you the money to pay the bills, what will you do? What if God doesn't come through....what are you going to do "just in case"? When these thoughts come we need to speak God's word. If your faith is weak speak His word out loud. He says in Romans 10:17 "Consequently, faith comes from hearing the message, and the message is heard through the word of Christ."
So speak His word. Remind Him of His promises to provide to take care of you. Remind God that He says we are indeed more important then the birds of the air. That we are more important then the grass in the field. And most importantly speak positive into your life. I know especially for me it's easy to wake up in the bad mood and dwell on it. To stay in that frame of mind. But God says that we need to think of the good things.
Philipians 4:8
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things.

You may not feel like praising God. You may not feel like getting out of your funk but know this. Life isn't about doing things we feel like doing. Doing something you don't feel like doing in it of itself is an act of faith. Declaring the victory before it comes. That is faith. And I believe this is what David was doing in this Psalm. The enemy came against him at night, he wept, he cried, he had his pity party then he changed his attitude and remembered God's promises. He declared them out loud of the enemy to hear. He sent that no good liar running while proclaiming God's truth. So this morning, even though I feel down, I will praise God. I am here and I trust in His promises and provision.